Okay, so I managed to think of something. If I don't want to have a period, I don't have to. I can skip my OCP and go without a period, or shift the timing of my period. (If you can call it a period. Technically isn't it more of a withdrawal bleed, nothing more than chemically-induced shedding of the lining?) The cost is more hot flushes than I can count, but at least for once, I can be in control of my body. My body prevented me from becoming a professional ballerina and it has prevented me from becoming a mother. At least I deserve the option of controlling this one small thing.
I know it's silly, but taking the OCP bothers me sometimes. I feel like a fake, like I'm just imitating what everyone else does naturally. It's ridiculous. I have no problem taking levothyroxine to compensate for Hashimoto's thyroiditis. I have no problem taking losartan to treat my hypertension. But why must I take birth control pills for my hormone replacement, when more than anything else in the world I want a baby?
I too got tired of bcp. I went on seasonelle or seasonique not spelled right.lol not the best speller. Anyway I chose to forgo the period for constant pill. I went 3 years without. It was a fake period anyway and painful cramping from being forced. It's kinda nice to say it because not many know what I go through.
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